5:38 PM February 16, 2013
The best part of my day is walking outside and watching the sky and hearing the birds sing. It means so much to me that everything in the universe exists. the stars the moon, the clouds, the energy. Every time I'm in a rut or in a pickle, I look at the stars and the thought comforts me that we're not alone. I want to go home.
I've been having more urges to help people and to love more. Opening your heart center is easier said than done...

I've been thinking of starting martial arts or combat training again. Sounds good. Starting to have more vivid dreams as well . the night terrors are fading.

I think why I persist on writing this publicly is because I want to speak or have someone to understand. I don't like talking about my problems no matter who see's it. Makes me feel ungrateful for what I already have, plus we all make our own hell.